butterflies

This is from back in 2016. I was reminded of it, (try to stay with me, it may be a challenge) because my husband sent me a text earlier today, letting me know that “The city is covered in butterflies.” I spent a good amount of time wracking my brain to figure out what he meant because, well, he speaks in metaphors. And sometimes they’re French. And they’re always obscure. 

Did he see a bunch of little girls in tutus? Were people flying kites at the beach? I dunno. Eventually I gave up. 

 Later, I was out driving and well, I’ll be damned if the air wasn’t filled with butterflies! Hundreds of actual butterflies who were obviously on their way to lunch. And the best part was (yes, it gets better) they were managing to navigate their way above the traffic. Not a splat in sight! 

They were freakin’ butterfly matadors! Or Coreadors. (Not Toreadors because no horse, but you get the picture.)

xox

“Beyah mahtahdah!”He yelled in his frequently indiscernible accent.
“Wait. What?” I whimpered pitifully in the middle of a six-lane highway, traffic whizzing by us on both sides.
“Beyah mahtahdah!”
I shook my head, shrugged my shoulders, and threw both arms in the air which as we all know is the universal sign for, I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THE FUCK YOU’RE SAYING!

Not waiting for a break, he grabbed my hand and ran us both out into traffic, weaving and bobbing in between cars out to a place I try REALLY hard to never find myself. The middle of a busy intersection.

There are no words in the English langauge to express how much I hate that shit. Glockenspiel will have to do for now.
Here’s the thing, I will NOT play chicken in traffic. Why?
1) Because I have a brain in my head that very much wants to stay there and not become a splat on a windshield and…
2) There is no place I need to be in such a red-hot hurry that I can’t wait for a break in traffic, or walk to the corner cross walk thank you very much.

But to my French husband, a red light is simply a suggestion and jaywalking on a busy boulevard is a bloodsport—a skill he mastered as a youth on the impossibly dangerous streets of Paris.

It is a bullfight. And he/we were Matadors. Gulp.

Me: (leaning in, yelling above the noise of the cars) I’m gonna…we’re about to…wait, what? Did you say…a matador?

Husband: Yes! Stand still! Don’t let the cars smell your fear.

Me: (Squeezing his hand like a vice grip, hoping to illicit pain) Seriously? Are you crazy? What are you talking about?

Husband: (Yelling back at me through a smirk) Listen to me, all the greatest Matadors are French!

Me: You’re kidding me right? They are so NOT French—they’re Spanish!

Did you see what he did there? He took my mind off of my predicament, knowing I would argue with him.
Well-played husband, well-played.

Husband: I’m telling you, they’re French! They’re called Coreadors.

I was laughing my nervous hyena laugh. Mostly at the absurdity of the conversation and the fact that I hadn’t made any plans to die that day. I’m sure I appeared squirmy and maybe just a tad hysterical. That comes from knowing that you’re probably going to end up as some random, gray-haired stain on the front hood of a Prius.

Me: Shut. Up. They are NOT!

Husband: (Leaning in, yelling above traffic) Or Toreadors. Those are the guys on horseback. 

Me: (Feeling queasy. close enough to death to relate to the bull) Uhhh! Stop! Bullfighting is barbaric! The French don’t have bullfighting! They’re WAY too civilized for that!

Husband: (Amused by my argument) That’s what YOU think!

By the way, can you believe we were still standing in the middle of a busy street? Me neither, but we were!

Me: (Wishing I’d ordered the french toast as my last meal) Egads. Bullfighting. Brutal. Whoever thought that was a good idea?

Husband: The Romans.

Me: Figures. Rome. Brutality central. 

With that, the last car hurtled past us as he yanked my hand and ran me to the safety of our car on the opposite side of the street. We were both laughing, not at bullfighting because it’s a horrible practice* —but at the absurdity of our entire conversation.

Husband: God, you can be such a baby!

Me: God, you’re weird! And damn, the Romans were assholes!

Some story on the radio in the car changed the subject, but I had to share this.

Words from a French wise guy I know: When you’re in the middle of chaos—stand still—be a matador.

Carry on,
xox

*Don’t get your panties in a bunch. We are in no way condoning bullfighting and no bulls were killed in the telling of this story.

“Once I read a story about a butterfly in the subway and today, I saw one! It got on at 42nd and off at 59th, where, I assume, it was going to Bloomingdales to buy a hat that will turn out to be a mistake, as almost all hats are.”
—You’ve Got Mail

Once upon a time, a loooooong time ago, my friend Wes asked me this question: “If you were a hat, what kind of hat would you be?”

“A black beret, of course”, I responded without hesitation.
This was the mid-nineties when everybody was wearing berets. Think Monica Lewinsky.
And it was during my black dress with black tights with black Doc Martins phase so yeah, I felt confident with my decision.

As I remember it, we were walking down a pretty steep hill near Wes’ home in San Diego on our way to dinner at a little place in his neighborhood.

Or… We were walking down that same hill after parking someplace where they didn’t have meters (because we were too cheap cool to pay for parking) and I was eating an Abba Zabba.

I have memories of both those events and the hat conversation happened on one of them I just can’t remember which one.
Anyway, I digress.

Wes stopped dead in his tracks mid-hill which took me a while to notice and because I had so much momentum going. When I finally did look back—he was shouting distance away.

I know that because I heard him shouting “You are so NOT a black beret! Do you even know yourself at all?” At the back of my head.

I waited and when he caught up with me he gave one of those shoulder shoves that your brother gives you when you eat the last chocolate chip cookie or your friend gives you when you say something dim-witted like, you think you’re a black beret.

“What? I love my black beret! It’s simple and clean and it gets the job done—pretty much like me!” I said, presenting my case to his smirky little face.

He started to laugh. And not just a polite little tee hee kind of laugh. Oh, no, my friend was practically doubled over, seized with big guffaws of raucously loud laughter.

I looked around, embarrassed, but the street was empty.

“You are the most complicated person on the planet! He finally managed to choke out. “Simple? Simple? HARDLY!” Bahahahahahaha!

I just stood there with a pouty face silently watching my friend convulse with laughter. But as everybody knows laughter is contagious and within seconds I came down with a nasty case of the giggles.

He continued, Oh, my, gawd! Get’s the job done! A beret is boring! A beret says I didn’t have the time to think about this. You are NOT boring and let’s get real here—you overthink EVERYTHING!”

He locked his arm in mine as we continued down the hill powered by the laughter.

“Okay”, I acquiesced through a fit of giggles. He had a point. “Then, if you know me so well—what kind of hat am I?”

“You are a pink hat. A pink party hat with a flower. Something zippy and sassy that says let’s have fun!”

And although I would never be caught dead in such a hat, I loved the fact that my fashion-forward, highly insightful friend had picked the exact same hat for me that I imagined the butterfly on the subway had chosen for itself at Bloomingdales.

By the way, I have to disagree with Ms. Ephron, (who wrote You’ve Got Mail) hats are never a mistake, even for butterflies.

So…what kind of hat are you?

Carry on,
xox